I am so much in love with my solitude that when someone steps into it, I feel crowded and crunched for space.
There are some ironies of life which are so difficult to understand, when I am alone, I want to have friends around me, but when have people around me I want to go back to my solitude. At times I sit back and think, what is it that I really need, meaningful relationships or my solitude, have never managed to find an answer
Logic would promptly say that you need to find a balance between the two, and you should spend sometime with people around you and some time with yourself. But this is easier said than done, at least for me...as I find both these aspects mutually exclusive, as when I am with people, I give them my 100% and can't refrain from thinking about them even when I am alone. To get my solitude I need everyone to be away from me physically, mentally, emotionally. They have to be outside my circle of thought. My solitude means when I can feel the slightest change around me, weather it is in nature, in my environment or in me, be able to connect to that respond to it in the most natural way.
Someday I will find the answer...or the balance :-))